Sunday, January 25, 2009

#3 - Follow My Fascination


I received two special pieces of mail on Thursday - my "12 Secrets of Highly Creative Women" book and a letter of appreciation for the painting I submitted. The letter made me feel good, and proud too, that I painted for a good cause. Now I'm eager to paint for myself. Also, I was excited to get my book so that I can get on board with the rest of the group. I have a lot of reading to do.

The book starts out with a quote that just really speaks to me:
"Your creativity is waiting for you like a dance partner." -Barbara Sher

painting in background "Oma" - by my daughter - age 10

This is my dance partner - from across the room it calls to me yet I stand back, hesitant to approach for fear I will mess up. I'm not a dancer, at all - I'm too embarrassed of what others will think of me and I have no rhythm whatsoever. But no one is looking so what am I afraid of? It doesn't matter if I look silly or make a wrong move - just go for it and don't hold back. As much as I wish that I could dance I wish that I could approach a canvas without trepidation - hesitant to make that first brush stroke. I want to paint freely with big, bold strokes of color just as if I was gliding across the dance floor listening only to the music in my head, letting my body relax and feel the beat. I want to see what's in front of me, put my brush in the color and quickly translate my vision to the canvas without thinking twice. I feel like I over think my painting - like the few times I have been on the dance floor - I try to think how I should be moving instead of just relaxing and feeling it.

The third chapter, "Secret 3 / Follow Your Fascinations", starts with a quote: "If you can put fear aside, you're unstoppable" - Janet Hagberg
So this next canvas, I will put that fear of making a wrong stroke and try not to over think it. I'll just squint my eye at what's in front of me and translate quickly and boldly. It will be fun. We'll just see how that turns out.

The 3rd chapter talks about risk taking. What kind of risk taker am I? The problem is I don't feel like I'm much of a risk taker at all. This holds me back. If I were to take a risk and follow my fascination I would sign up for a Plein Aire painting adventure in Provence right now, book a flight to France and experience the dream I've always dreamed of.
I've painted several paintings of lavender fields in Provence - compositions from made up from several photographs I pulled out of magazines.



But I want to paint these scenes standing in my floppy straw hat with the sun warming my back, easel in front of me, mixing the perfect shades of lavender with my oils, intoxicated by the scent of lavender surrounding me, and paint til the sun dips below the horizon.
So what is stopping me from doing this? What real risks are there? I don't know the language, I'm afraid to travel alone, I don't have the extra money right now, etc. Well... start saving now, take my daughter with me (she knows the language) and there you go - that takes care three things I thought were stopping me. My creative self is inviting me on this new adventure and I'm ready to follow.

16 comments:

ELK said...

leslye thank you for taking me on this journey as well...I appreciate the thoughts and quotes...reading this as I am taking a break from wrapping up my little hand stitched birdies...

Kavindra said...

I find it interesting that you call this a tiny risk, and in the same breath say you don't feel like a risk taker! That's a pretty big one, certainly doable and all, but you sure don't think small!

Good for you, may you follow your fascinations all the way to Provence.

Mr.Anonymous said...

cool blog

Ms. Tee said...

Your paintings are beautiful -you're truly talented! I hope you do get to go and paint there in your floppy hat. :)

bermudabluez said...

Just do it!!! Your paintings are awesome!!! Fantastic!! I so hope you are able to follow your dreams all the way to France! I have faith that you can....and will!!

laundrygirl said...

Dive in - swipe a big dose of color across that canvas and give yourself permission to play!
I find that I have to forget the work I have done (often removing anything I have created from sight) before I can make something new simply so that I don't compare what I am making to what has already been done. When I do this I freeze and get stuck out of fear and pressure as I impose unnecessary expectations upon myself. Celebrate the letter and then take a deep breath and start anew.

Kath said...

Leslye, you are amazing. You can come to our house, stay in the guest room and paint vineyards and orchards if you like ... it's not France but it's pretty cool nonetheless!

leaca said...

I Lowell Herero and he has all kinds of paintings with lavender.

I am so glad you got the book.

Genie Sea said...

Happy travels! :)

Genie Sea said...

OH! I adore your paintings! :)

Sew Fab Martha said...

I am thinking I should follow your example and get my hands on that book. Looks like it is inspiring your creativity!
Thanks for passing it along!

HOPELESSBELIEVER said...

Hey Leslye,

I've left something for u on my blog!!! Have a great day :)

Andie said...

Love, love your work!
xxoo,
a.

Woman in a Window said...

I think you could be good for the soul, you and your quotes, your beliefs, your talent and even your trepidation.

go-

Wayfaring Wanderer said...

Those are gorgeous! I think someone needs to make themselves a vision board :o)

Becci said...

YOU GO GIRL!

Have a great hair day! Becci